Moderation

So I was thinking today how I often have lost in thought days and or scatterbrained days, and sometimes bad days. They all really come to the same thing, me being focused on me. Today has been a bad day for me. I have a Recreational Class that I thought would help me become more active, and to learn to relax and have fun. But it has become the most stressful class for me, I honestly hate it. When I go there I feel like I'm back in highschool and feel like I'm going to have a panic attack. I seriously close up like I did when I was in high school. After that class is over it's like I've taken 4 steps backwards.
Well I went to get lunch at the U.B. after class and as I was leaving I saw this woman cleaning up something like spilled ketchup. It wasn't until I had passed her that I thought that maybe I should help her, but then I thought about how I had my hands full and didn't want to bother turning around and setting my stuff down; I was having a bad day after all. So I just kept walking. Well as I said I close up after that class, and when I close up I become rather self-involved, and I become thoughtless.
I realized it's okay to have bad days, and be upset about it, and it's okay to get lost in thought at times, but those bad days and lost in thought moments should not consume us. It's important to notice and care about people. I believe it's important to not become the kind of individual who thinks, "It's not my problem," "Glad it's not me," or "Sucks to be you." That's not healthy thinking or living. We want others to be concerned for us, or, at the very least, to show respect for our feelings so we should show that same courtesy to others. No we can't solve peoples problems, but we can certainly help make it easier for those individuals to bear them. So I've decided to work on being more aware of people. When I have a bad day, I'll allow myself a moderate amount of time to be upset, to vent; then I need to move on, because their are loads of people out there who are having a bad day too, and more than likely theirs is worse than mine. So here's to moderation, and looking past myself.