Liar, Liar, Pants on Fire

Doesn't it drive you crazy when someone knows you almost better than you know yourself?? Well today I was talking to my sister, Melissa, about this guy I liked, I had said that I was over him- I thought I was, truly I did! When I liked him, or rather when I had acknowledged that I did, I found out that he was dating someone, so I told myself I would forget him, and I think for the most part I did. I believed I was over him. Well fast-forward to today, where I was talking to Melissa, as I said above, and I told her that I was good at lying to myself, and she looked at me and said, "You still like him don't you?" I was flabbergasted! I didn't think she would know what I was even going to be talking about, but she did. Then she said that she didn't believe me when I had said I was over this guy, and I was all, "well I believed me." humph...I wish I wasn't so good at lying to myself, it's not very good for my health. :P So I'm frustrated with myself for liking this guy, who I now don't know for certain if he is dating anyone, and even if he weren't I don't know if he'd be interested in me. And I am also frustrated since I posted this thing on my facebook, about being okay with being single! I wasn't saying that I wanted to stay single, but rather was saying that as long as I was single, I'd be okay. But I think that it came across as me saying that I wasn't interested in dating! Why do I do this to myself? Anyway I just thought I'd take a moment to complain about my non-existent love life! :)

CRASH!

I hate crashes, there is nothing about a crash that is good. Anytime the word "crash" is involved in a conversation it means something bad happened. Well today my sister informed me that our computer crashed. To restart the computer my brother had to do a full system recovery, or something like that- kind of like an enema, or a colon cleanse, for a computer I imagine. This means that everything will be wiped off the hard drive!! So unless the computer did an auto-save before it crashed, everything is gone! I am a bit upset, but I guess I have to accept it. I'll have to start over with my cousins wedding photo's, I'll have to try to remember things I wrote and saved on there, to re-write them, which with my memory is unlikely! Maybe I need to start taking ginkgo-biloba, or whatever, to help me with my memory. Dahhhh!! I wish computers didn't crash; well I wish crashes didn't happen of any kind! But I suppose I can only move forward and be more wise when I write and save things on a computer. I think I will be going out later today and buying a lot of memory sticks, and what not. 'As God as my witness, I will never lose another thing in a computer crash again!' :p

Answered prayer

There is a friend of mine who was facing some trials, and was struggling with trusting the Lord. I wanted to say something that would comfort her, and help her, but I didn't know what to say. So I prayed to find the words, and I then started to write her a note, and the words began to come, sometimes they were slow, but they came. I wanted to post what I sent her, because the words were important for me, not just because I wanted to help her, but because it was a reminder to me too, for those moments life gets tough for me. I did lose the first half of the message, so that part will basically be from memory. So here goes:
'I wanted you first to know that I love you. I don't know exactly what you're going through, but I know you're struggling, and it's important to you, what you feel matters, and I do not in any way want to deny that. I believe though that we are all called to go through some suffering in life, and feel a small part of what the Lord felt. And as painful and difficult as our trials are, we cannot lessen what the Lord went through, for us. He loves you, and suffered for you, that is someone worth trusting. And the Lord would not be so unkind or so' "foolish as to have gone through all he went through for you and me, only to leave you now, or to become careless with your life. You are not bad for feeling as you do, I've felt that way before. I ask that you not give up on him yet. Talk to him and tell him how you feel, even tell him that you are angry or upset, tell him you are having a hard time trusting him, but whatever you do, do not give up on him. He is there, you just need to give yourself a little time to notice him. As I said before, I love you and the Lord loves you."
Like I said I wanted to post this so that I could remember it for myself. I had been so worried that I may have upset her when I sent it to her, but she told me later that it had helped her. It gave me comfort to know that the Lord had helped both of us in that moment. He knew what would help her, and gave me the words we both needed to hear. It gave me some hope that I am not a complete flop in trying to hear him, and help others, and it strengthened my testimony that the Lord does hear and answer prayers.