Learning

I want to learn, I love it- at times it gets pretty stressful- but for the most part it's amazing! I love the moment when, after struggling to understand something, the light comes on, everything falls into place, and I know. I love the feeling of moving forward, growing, and gaining more knowledge, it helps me feel alive.
I've not been able to go to school the last two semesters- well this last fall semester I needed a break, like I said it can be stressful at times. Then this Spring I couldn't afford to go. So it's been awhile since I was going to school, and I've been feeling pretty low, feeling like I've just been stagnant, and not moving forward at all, and when I feel like this I feel stupid. I hate this feeling, of just drifting, and not doing anything, because then I start to forget the things I do know, which I'm afraid isn't much, even though I love to learn. So until I can get back into school- which I'm hoping will be this fall, fingers crossed- I'm going to try to study things on my own, which is sometimes a little difficult, but I'm gonna do it, I need to, because I can't stand feeling like this. It's driving me crazy!