How things are coming along

So I haven't been able to develop any of the pictures, but so far this year I've taken pictures daily. Wootwoot! I mean I know I'm only 6 days into the year and all, but it's pretty awesome that I'm remembering to take the pictures. I'm trying to keep track of what I take pictures of each day so I don't get all confused about what is what. I'm going to try to develop my film soon and post the pictures online. I don't want to wait until the end of the year to post all of my pictures.
Anyway as for other things in my life right now I'm trying to debate whether or not to go to school this semester. I need to find out if I'll be able to get financial aid again, if I stop going this semester, even though I won't have moved onto being a Jr. I had heard, and may be wrong, that in order to get financial aid each year you need to have progressed a year- so if you are a freshman, to get financial aid again the next year you'll have needed to become a sophomore. If that's true than I don't know if I can just stop going, unless I find an excellent job that pays well so I can save up the money for school next fall, which is when I plan on going back to school. I just feel that I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know what I want to be, so I feel like I'm going no where in school, not working towards anything really, and none of the classes at the University I'm attending seem interesting enough, I'm dreading each day, and feeling like such a loser. I really am not interested in any of the classes I'm signed up for, well except one class, which I realized I can't do right now, so with that one gone I feel like there is no point to my going to school right now. I just don't know what good it'll do. I'm thinking that if I drop out right now, I may go to a different university next year; depending on what classes and opportunities other universities have to offer. I don't know if I'm making any sense or if this all sounds jumbled, but I need to get things off my chest. I've been feeling so depressed lately, overwhelmingly so, and I feel stuck. I hate feeling like I'm going no where in life, but just running around in circles. I hate seeing people so passionate about what they want to do in life and I have no clue what to do with mine. Why? I have many interests, but I don't know which one to pick, and I don't feel passionate about them, at least not as much as others seem to be about their interests. I think I'd enjoy having many hobbies, but I don't think I'd really want to make any of them careers. And some of the ideas I have for careers I don't know if I really want to do them, or if I could even physically be capable of doing them. For instance I've been thinking lately of being a physical therapist, but I don't know if my body could handle that; my joints, especially my wrists are hurting more and more, so I don't think that I'd be capable of that kind of work. I think I'd do more damage to myself, and end up in a wheelchair needing physical therapy myself! Same thing with becoming a massage therapist.
I had thought about other things, and none of them seem to hold much excitement or joy for me. I've begun to wonder if there is anything at all that I could do that would make me happy, I don't care if I make a lot of money with it, I just want to enjoy what I do. But if there is nothing that I can do I feel like I'm just a pointless and useless nobody. Just a waste of space. I hate that feeling. Blah! :(