compliments

So I am probably one of the oddest ducks out there. I hate compliments!! They drive me crazy! When someone compliments me I feel even worse about myself, and I feel suspicious; I start worrying that maybe they are really making fun of me, or whatever. Well the guy that I previously wrote about has complimented me a few times, and each time I never knew what to say, and I just felt stupid because of them. He's a pretty upfront guy so I decided last night to be upfront with him and to tell him to stop complimenting me-I think I came across not only as a loony, but also as a jerk. AHHH! I need to get my head screwed on straight. I need to figure out how to at least graciously accept compliments, even if I don't believe them. Anyway I feel tired, and my neck hurts, I didn't sleep well last night, and so my head is foggy, and I am extremely tense! I just want to go back to bed and sleep until next week! :( Okay, okay, I'm going to focus on the positive- I think an individual can choose to be positive, and I'm going to choose to be so!! I'm going to be happy and enjoy today- school has started and I'm going to have fun with it, and the next time I talk to "The Guy" I'm going to be nice and positive towards him. I'm not even going to mention the compliment thing.